Methadone Dreams

I fight to let go of the past 

but it haunts my dreams

I cannot relinquish this addiction on my own.

There is no sequence of steps, no support group, 
no ritualized speech for dreamers.

There are only these dreams

day dreams which pale against the dream I had.

They take the edge off the ache.

Perhaps soon I shall need them less and less.
Yet even methadone is addictive.
I don't want to wake from these dreams.